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Monday, July 31, 2006


darrion toked to me on fone for lyk.. till midnight. i cried to him. im feelin really bitter inside out. so unlike me.. but i jux felt wei qu.

ya. im a person who's very easily affected by thing happening ard me. esp wad others comment abt me. lyk gossips, ridicules, misunderstandings, accusations n even scoldings. i response very quickly to negative things tat r related to me, n tend to get myself stuck in a situation of self-pitiness. n der impact to me was very great. if u've been my gd fren, u will noe.

i dun wan these to happen. i dunno y it can jux struck me, leaving me emotionally paralyzed for days, or even weeks. a simple msn nick against me would made me do countless self-reflections, to der extend of blaming myself.

sometimes, i ask myself, why am i in this situation? i will by mental-force, tell myself, cos God place me here to learn n grow. its to mould n shape me.

know wad affects me der most?
when i heard ppl saying bad things abt me behind my back.
why dont they do a clean job? why leave traces to let me noe?
it hurts lyk u can nver imagine.

anw, lemme tink through. i'll be fine. soon.


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previous two days was deliverance srv. by pastor mark corner. he's such a great n anointed man of God.

i went for a total of 3 deliverance.
it horrifying for me.
but thank God. all glory be to Him.

during cg, wen sis kaixin laid hands on me, its not love or comfort tat i felt. its der glory n power of God. to Him tat He'll restored me. restoring joy, peace n holy spirits.

did sth pretty cool jux now. i crushed into a business tutorial jux now. hahaha.. hey! its not a lecture, its a tutorial okays.... so risky. got der potential of being chased out by der tutor. jessica n eugene were der ones who ENCOURAGED me. lolols. n der tutor really couldnt recognise me at all. well, n so on. =)


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Friday, July 28, 2006


--somebody gonna curse me for this entry.

hmpf.. ive been lyk crazy over joakim for wks already? kae lahs.. dont noe y im lovin him so so much. but to tink of it, (if he's not an idol finalist) den he's only a normal guy whom you'll bump into, at orchard road, if u nver walk properly. lol.

but im lyk crazy now. i wan my next boy to be a dashing, cute n super nice young lad! LOLOL. working hard working hard~ hahaha. tats y im lyk trying my best to LOSE WEIGHT n become more pretty pretty now. :D

criteria for my next guy!
1) someone who loves me:) (fei hua.)
2) spiritually strong; he mux be someone who place Jesus before than me. (i dont mind! :D)
3) taller than me at least by 5cm (im 169cm =))
4) considerate, understanding....BLAH. (as long as he's not childish)
5) "average-looking" (:p duh!)
6) must have FEEL (lolol)



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Thursday, July 27, 2006


went during tuition. i slept during tuition time.
when i woke up, first thing tat came to my mind: did joakim go into der next round? YES YES YES~! hahaha. my poor tuition kids....


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Wednesday, July 26, 2006


12.52am now. jux rch home.
shared cab wit calvin. hahhaa.

went to watch spore idol at mediacorp today.
im so on for joakim now.
hahaha. :):):)
jia you wor....
i did sth crazy today.
it's freeeeaking.

i went to mt emily to wait for joakim. so in love wit him!
HE KNOW ME CAN?

okay. im lazy to blog.


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Monday, July 24, 2006


had prayer conference wit sis kaixin, sisca n linda jux now.
my mother interupted when its my turn.
so wrong. den not long aft sis kaixin's fone went off batt.
but thk God, der spirits led us to call linda's hp to continue.
this time, everything was so much better n flow was great.

den aft tat, sis kaixin toked to me. abt prayers n cg blah.
thk God. He delivered our love for her stright into her heart. she felt loved. :]
n ya, my prayer really got prob. i jux dunno y i ant pray wit leaders....
wad's happening? so wrong.


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Sunday, July 23, 2006


CELLGROUP.

during cellgrp, i got a wonderful testimony to share. i was lyk.. very excited when it was abt my turn to share my testimony. but at der first few sentences, i broke down. i felt warmth. no goosebumps or wad ever u call tat. i was shock myself.. i jux couldnt speak on n i broke to tears.. to me, there wasnt much of der presense of holy spirits. but it jux rained down when "i wanna thank God for His love cos.." ya. i haven even finish my lines yet.. den sister kaixin n der cg laid hands on me. again, i felt so warm. so heated up. no goosebumps, no anything. jux pure warmth. as if angels coated blankets on me.... its der first time im feelin it. frm tat moment, i defined der feeling as LOVE.


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Monday, July 17, 2006


oh no. my foot's lyk really swollen.
:(:(:(:(:(
but no worries. i'll be healed in Jesus name!
HAHAHA.

SATURDAY SERVICE.
i wanna blog abt sat's srv. hmm.... was a lil messy. n attendance wise, i tink i manage to get done wit it but wasnt a very gd job, i tink. haiiya. im lyk.. so blur can. i dun even noe wad is double-count, how to msg proper forecast for leaders.. i made it so confusing. maybe cos im doin it for der first time, but still, it cant be used as an excuse.. haiiya! forget it. wad's done is done. anyway, attendance was average in conclusion.

its a very dramatic wk....
jolin fainted during srv (at der last part). a lot ppl lookin at us.. hmm. its lyk not very nice lahs.. its a healing srv n she actually fainted! before that, i went up to der alter to be counseller, aft i came back den i saw her fainted wit linda n sisca attending to her. im lyk, "oh nonono.. this is bad." but shes not to be blamed. she was totally alright during sermon n blah. its quite a distraction cos its testimony time when she fainted. somemore we're lyk sitting so front. den sis ma wan me n a bro to send her home by cab. but jolin insisted havin dinner tog wit us.. den hmm. its her decision. :)

okay, i went up to be a counsellor today! was there for a guy who answered to alter call for rededication. his name is nicholas. :)) its always so pleasant to see God's child coming back into His warm arms again aft some tough struggles frm der world :) yupp. n i prayed for him.

next. aft srv, karila got lost! we told der mrt controllers n they actually send an email to der headquarters, there then, der headquarters mass send an email to all mrt stations in spore. in der end, karila's found. thk God! this kinda tings better not happen 2nd time. didnt msg sis kx or sis xz. think they'll get heart-attack at taiwan if they were to know tat sth lyk tis happen..

SUNDAY'S BBQ
sadly, i missed morning srv. early mornin my DEAREST mother went yo ntuc to help me buy food to prepare for fried rice for der bbq. gagaga* she can really cook. so proud of her. :D n junliang came to my hse to help me. LOLOL. den we took mrt all der way to kembangan den meet eunice n sheena over there. eunice got der flesh-imp vip card! next time can lend frm her. haas.

bbq was gd.. but got "scolded" by sis ma. err.. not sae scolded lah.. is she told me tat its unfair for her cg to bring so much food while our cg so lac lac.. hmm. tink our cg nid some changes. have more initiatives!! haa.. n i invited tianshui to come. errrrr. ya, a bit weird lah. but we're only frens. serious. :)

oh yah. we cycled to a shoppin mall. to buy some stuffs frm der giant there. tian arh.. my cycling skills is really horrendous. i fell at der roadside. there's this bunch of sec sch gers suddenly push here n there n pop out in front of my lane n.. ya, i tot i could cycle on grass as i did usually. but this time's diff. der soil is super muddy. my wheels got stuck in it n im lyk.. chiak! :) yah. haha. aft tat samson waited for me. i still act cool -.- but in der end he still caught my leg bleeding. nvm. i"ll go brush up. hahaha.

n yupps. chatted wit fang. tat nite so romantic. HAHAHA. toked quite a lot. :) n there was a pt of time where tianshui lost his fone. not lost lah. is phoebe holding onto it. den me n him walked all der way to mac there to find her. super wrong time.. cos a lot couple hanky-panky there. both of us r lyk 1000watts of lightbulbs passing by couples. lols.

still got...... so much to blog. im tired. i'll jux sae der last part. nixi n me went home tog. :D super tiring. we went 7-11 get ourselves some drinks. n we board bus blah blah to city hall mrt. city hall mrt at tat time is lyk.. CHINA. china ppl packed der whole station. nixi n me were totally stunned. i only saw one malay in der trian. ONE. so exaggerating. ONE can? all packed wit chinese ppl. worst still, chinese ppl tat dont look lyk sporean. there're cfm frm china. cos they holding wad tourism fan tingy.

in conclusion of whole bbq, my fave bbq food is still marshmallow :D



oh my goodness.
can some justice pls pls pls be done?
its obviously unfair. nver mind. hmpf! i believe justice will be done. He will come to judge. i'll bite my teeth hard n move on. someday there's be dancers who dance on the streets upon injustice. yes. tolerate! bear wit it!


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now havin lab session.
dont care lah. do finish work lers.
replying tags NOW.

eileen: aiai! lol. i oso miss u. see lah, now got so much of sch n proj work to be done. duh! cannot weven go out.. :s

lynn: so ke qi wor. lol. okay lahs.. :D anw, thx.. i noe u will be here for me. but no worries.. i'll be fine! im always laughin n laughin rem? gagaga* yeah! usherers rocks! n if i nid morning calls i'll give u a call!

'pris: i will.

mazy: DIAO. create blog den cannot link? y not u try to add password blocker? n t hx.. no worries. by God's grace, i will be able to pass this tough time.

vin: YA LAH. i noe lah. proud liao lor.. haha.. but thanks so much.. i tink he noes me now already.. anw, he's really VERY cute. lol. n dont worrie. i wont collapse so easily.. u first day noe me arhs? LOL.

marr`: HIHI. takecare!

vivien: err. okays. i'll try to link u asap!! loveees! :)

sera: thx dear :) cya ard next wk!

zhiliang: oh no! gimme ya link again kaes? i tink i lost it.. :s so sorrie.... lol.

XR: hehs. oh no.. fren! aft sec sch we macham lost contact already. :( can we lyk meet out for laser quest or sth before this yr end?

oolong`: diao! how u find my blog de?? lols. ya lah ya lah got lah got lah. got cry lah. ppl sad mah..

eRic: i rem u already! i almost forgot u duh.. ya lor.. really long looong time since i bump into u. lols. u pon sch is it? hahaha.

chew xian: yupp. thx dear. im alrights. always. :)) shall really meet up wit u. misses*

jez: YES FREN. im strong lyk a tree! lets buck up tog!! loveees*

nerd: AH. one of my funniest student actually tag when im givin him tuition! LOLOLS. i still owe u comics. :s

SISCA: heyhey! YAYA! gd news!! i got der supplier already!! gagaga* pls remind me to tell u.. i got very very poor memory.. lol.

LeNgzgrlzz: DIAO. i got a hard HARD time reading.. change ur way of typing can? LOLOL. ya. n u're my most naughty student.

lish`: yaya.. im replying tags now.. n return me my necklace n earings!! HAHAHA. 2 wks plus lers! (thx for ur free banana delivery.. :):):) among all cousins, u noe me best!)

ao: im late again. -.- n u owe me a meal. (u noe der reason urself! haha)


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Sunday, July 16, 2006


im very very very tired.
eyes closing but im so sticky. goin to bath den quiet time den slp. tmr lesson at 8am. so early.. :(
i tink i hurt der veins on my foot, cos it really hurts so much.. i cant even walk well.. thx adrian for fetching me home. if not i tink i'll be home ard 2am?
hahaha.
okays. nite nite.
i'll blog today n ytd, tmr morning.
loves.

(SORRIE. haven reply tags.. im too shag.)


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Saturday, July 15, 2006


SIS KAIXIN, i miss u.

hmpf. had prayer conference on sis ma's fone wit der rest of other cgls n helpers in der zone. err.. im nervous. yes. dunno why.. i wanted to pray but i was lyk.. choked n could only speak in tongues n kp agree-ing. so aft tat, i prayed wit jon n sisca. so much better. at least i could really pray.

i bought a book frm life bookshop today. frm bishan's outlet. aft roaming ard in der shop for lyk a long 30-45mins, i finally found this book titled, "Praying for Purpose (for women)". it mentioned abt sixty influential women n their prayer experiences, reflections, unique life missions n callings. its a WOW book for me. gagaga* cost $22.90. but guess wad? i bumped into eilton! and he actually works there, n i got der book at $18+ aft 20% discount! hallelujah! :D:D:D

okay. i'll blog abt today. i went for ALL lessons today. so proud of myself. i gonna jiayou bac. i wan gd grades!! hahaha. n i now really noe who're those who i can call frens. :):):)

ao shared wit me sth in day. hmm. im der 2nd person to noe again. haiiya. dumb man. everytime got good tings will wait long long den tell me. got bad tings den i will be first few to noe. some kinda gd bro huh! lol. but tis time, i was pretty shock.. hope everything ting turns out fine n well for him. make wise decisions!! HAHAHA.

den i went for my tuition. my tat RI student. hmm. was duper late, i tink. but no choice.. time clashes wit my sch. so hmm. finally dropped tat tuition. but was really "bu she de". haiiyo. he's one of those students who can really entertain u n wont make u so tired de lor. really "she bu de".
he gave me a comic book- fruit basket. he signed inside!! hahaha. it says: To: WeiShan. gayish teacher. 14/7/06. by chang sun. diao not funny lah. qi si ren. LOL. he commented i was der most baby-like (childish n frenly) n most retarded tutor tat he've ever had! man. how descriptive -.- but i was tryin to be frens n not tutor n student wad.. DIAO. n see my tagboard, his tagname is nerd. lyk real~ ACT NERD. misses*

(i will reply my tags soon. so sorrie for kp delay-ing. im not dua bai or wad kk? LOVES.)

tmr goin to meet joelynn. goin to poa to buy my heels!! my desired heels!! man. hahaha. nite nite.


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Friday, July 14, 2006


already so many told me, yet he denied.
i dunno why he got der face n guts.
but i forgave him. lyk how Jesus fogave me.

i was so angry jux now.. lol
ate one whole bunch of bananas.
tmr morning, 3kg heavier -.-

sis kaixin now in taiwan.
wit sis jo n xiuzhen. guess they're havin lotsa fun n busy working.
will pray hard tat emerge tat wld be great n many wld respond to der alter call.. not only. but they'll be retained in Jesus name!
hahaha.

sis kaixin! hao xiang ni~ so being a cgl is really not easy. gotta do so many things. lyk following up wit members, callin new frens, keeping track of new frens, cfm-ing bs timing blah blah. wad im helpin now is only A BIT of wad she handles. n i still have sisca to help me. praise LORD.

hmpfs. recently suffer frm a lot of devil's attack. frens, i nid u to pray for me. add me into ur prayer list pls. =) my studies r in crisis. i gotta buck up der rest of this sem. my family's very upset abt me being so tired n strained. they're unwilling to see me busy lyk a bee. so they kp scoldig me. im physically very tired n strained out. i feel slpy very easily n therefore, losing power of focus. relationship wit classmates r on down-slope. im not experienced in doin cg work. as in im very worried tat i wont do a gd job.. hmm. but to all tat, in Jesus name, i bind all satan's doings! for the LORD will make me der head n not der tail, i shall be above only n not be beneath.

holy spirits, pls be my guide. pour down, abundantly, wisdom n anointing. tat i may be sharp n sensitive to my cg members.
Jesus, i need You to be wit me now. Send Your almighty angels down to protect me. be my feet n carry me through tough times.

sis kai xin hao wei da~ LOL.


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Wednesday, July 12, 2006


VoiceOut 06/07 today was a great success.
guess so far its der best among der 3! :D

haas. ushering nt easy okay! im usher for der day. first time to usher. :) though my leg's aching lyk a bee jux stung my foot, i continued to usher n serve. by God's grace. guess my pain was reduced to minimum. guess i did pleasantly well? hees. der ushers really rocks! got jessica, waileng, cheryl, wentao, stephanie, sze kee, daphne n ain. HAHAHA.
we're lyk super pro can. x)

hmm. during trial, reb got very upset. maybe cos of her pronounciation.. got some participants n quite a few committee ppl complain. but seriously, its quite obvious.. me too can hear der wrongs.. den bfore der event she asked me, "shan, i feel lyk quitting now. can i dont be mc?"
i almost fainted. DUH! is she kidding wit me or wad? everyone will kill her n she'll be hated for a lifetime man. LOLS. but luckily tat brave ger perservered on. (by God's grace!) but overall she did a gd job. praise-able :]

EUGENE CHIA impressed me. tat christian song is lyk a wow. presenting a christian praise song in a position of guest singer in voiceout?! LOL. dok gong! i was lyk.. hmm. i jux need a song lyk this to kp me goin of my tough time. gonna get der lyrics frm him n update in next blog post.

okay. den siaw ying won der 2nd prize! WOW. singing is still her forte. she look really pretty on stage. loves! to tink tat i haven got her anything as bdae present, i got her a flower (those fake ones). hope she lyk it. :)

and wad? mau got der 1st prize for grp singing! its lyk.. wow wow! happy for her~ see! unitians can sing rites? i rem our sec sch days. when we're still so young, we went online to search for lyrics, copy in foolscape to file together n bring sch sing everyday to sing tog. (baoling, hao xiang ni~)
hmpf. but guess der 3 who sang fireflies are gd too. a lot tot they'll win. but tey didnt..

ya. yuan ching cried. cos she tink she didnt do well. dumb marcus. at backstage when yuan ching cry, he immediately exclaim n macham all participants went to comfort her. LOL. hope she get over it fast fast. :)

ao too. didnt get prizes. but he sang well. :) great job. rachel went stage to gif him flowers. bought by cheryl, wentao, blah blah. hahas. too bad.. dawn wasnt there. if not she'll be proud of her boyfren. hahaas.

man. i tell u. im lyk goin through hell now. im fighting a spiritual warfare. a tough one. everything's coming up against me NOW. all at a go. how can i take it? but wit God, i can. i can. i asked for grace, wisdom n anointing to counter everything. der bible says, ask and u shall receive.
yes. in Jesus name, i claim tat. nothing's gonna slam me down. not der devil's call.

and thks melissa for praying for me jux now. im deeply appreciative of wad u've done. its jux in time. though tats an inappropriate place, i could really sense tat tings are moving. i will hold on n live on by faith. :)

before i forget sth, xavier reminded me sth. i went watching soccer wit him, kah yip n renli at cathay cine. wasted a lot of time at xavier's hse there. waiting for kahyip n him to prepare -.- nan ren. LOL. den went there by cab. shireen, cedric they're there too. n their frens. its der world cup finals 2006. italy vs france. italy won. i cried. okay. i dunno why. zidane almost broke my heart when he cried past the championship throphy. but at least, he's not a coward captain, i tink. der head butt.. SIGHS. won some money. a bit only. i betted on france by bookie, through kah yip. my father won quite a lot. rico too. he showed off to me! hmpfs. lastly, thx junying for der tix n clement for sending a half-dead person home. :]

took many many pics.
will update pics soon.
(when collected all :D)


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Monday, July 10, 2006



ytd went out wit my cousin joelynn n kezia.
:D:D:D:D:D
really enjoyed my day so so much.
loveee em lots.

hmm. i bought my vintage dress ytd.
der one i desired so much.. :D
finally i got it! hahaha.

and we took neoprints!
LOL. haven take neoprints wit em bfore.
so dumb. screams n shouts everywhere. -.-



obviously, blessed.

den der 3 of us went to have some choco fondue.
haas.. so funnie..
maybe cos der choco is too thick
it jux flowed down their chin abundantly.
lol

saw johnny. how long have i not seen him?
lol. he still look so guai as usually.
fake looks. appearance tells lies.

in train,
i was playin n viewing photos wit her fone.
i pressed a dunno wad key den
went stright into der inbox. :x
bfore i could exit der system,
i saw his name in der inbox section..
n so tey actually msg-ed wit each other often.
lol. i still wanted to gif him her no.
-.- HAHAHA.




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Sunday, July 09, 2006


im okays already. thx frens.
ytd i was really down.
had my SIXTH warning letter.
almost got expelled -.-
(one more lecture mia den will get it)
my parents r cursing me lyk dunno wad.
i dun see der pt of goin lessons jux to
get my attendance taken. hopeless sch -.-

my tuition kid givin me probs.
lotsa headache wit my four students.
nowadays kids get bad real fast.
nver do my work still scold me "fuck", "cb" n "lj".
-.-
of course i scolded him back 10 times more.
until their mothers gimme a cane.
lols.

quarreled wit mag n janc.
they so-call confronted me.
sae wad ive changed n more dua bai now.
DUH! dont tey noe me well? i dua bai?
we used to go pub and
i promised em my virgin nite
(means first nite, dont tink much.)
at club wit em. (18 yrs old mah)
but its lyk.. i cant go already.
im already a christian n tat im so busy wit life already.
so yack yack yack.
aft 2 hrs+ den compromise wit each other.
was really sad. my midnite spent arguing.
ya. im sorrie if i haven been contactin u guys.. :(

my life is so busy.
every single day, im lyk.. a bee.
suddenly i paused ytd of all my work
to tink if wad i did for all these while was worth it.
im tired.
thk God for an ans. its all worth it.
i shall continue it by His strength.
all i nid was jux self-revival.
carrying His cross in life aint tat simple.

and when i need someone to tok to,
there're so many..
but which are really close frens in my life?
DUH.
angel5 clan? my sec sch gers? jessie? yiling? lish n jenf? ada? reb? jelinda? vinc n lynn? rachel? mag, janc n jon?
so many so many. i cld list one whole chunk.
but my BEST?
im lyk growing every min.
i gain so many close n best frens.
but drifted away.
n so many of another batch came.
but drifted away again.
n here comes another batch of close ones....
story goes on.

i asked myself..
who will go facial n massage wit me when my face n hands r full of wrinkles?
who will dye my hair brown wit me when i got all my hair silver n white?
who will go yum-cha wit me when i turn teeth-less?
so many dumb qns start popping out.

am i goin to live my youth lyk tat?
DUH. busier than der busiest.

tats der reason i was so shagged n down
last few days.
but im charged up again. fine already.


10.59pm

7:32 AM






my goodness.
i wanna cry.
but im alright. really okay.

*-vivien-* - i simply love u ! ! says:
shan
; weishan. im blessed to love. says:
yes dear?
*-vivien-* - i simply love u ! ! says:
i love u
u are so special to me
thank for everything u done in my life
:)
_______________________________

★♣waiwai♣★ <03+03=06> just sent you a Nudge!
; weishan. im blessed to love. says:
??
★♣waiwai♣★ <03+03=06> says:
u ok ma?
wad happen to u?
; weishan. im blessed to love. says:
okay
noting lahs
really okay
:]
★♣waiwai♣★ <03+03=06> says:
oh.. tts great
if gt anything, can talk to me too
im ur old time fren, remember?
_______________________________

-*full-time glam*- says:
dear, u there?
; weishan. im blessed to love. says:
yupp. yes?
-*full-time glam*- says:
weii.. wad happened to u?
u looked so sad recently. so shagged.
; weishan. im blessed to love. says:
nothing. cos lyk tat lor. lols.
im fine. dont worry :]
-*full-time glam*- says:
mmm.. okie..
if u got any probs muz come to me okie?
my ears r always for u dear.

am i really so obviously down recently?
ive only been online for 15 mins.
okay. im really nt happy.
i dunno why.
i nid a ear. so much.
but so many ears for me to make me feel lyk..
i nid to tok to someone not close at all.
so wrong.


12.06am

12:06 AM





Friday, July 07, 2006


im so deeply in love wit Jesus.

tat simon. wan slap him hard.
kp askin me NOT to go to church.
duh! besides tat he's okay lahs.
super frank. GOOD.
he promised me to a car racing
aft he get his car in august 19 i tink.
but i fear for my life. its obviously at risk.

today fan wei qi havin sch concert in nyp.
i got lotsa tix n i gave to all who wanted it.
n i myself didnt go. -_- lame rite?
anyways thx calvin so so much! :D

hmpfs. heard tat der concert was very gd.
fanfan de voice was very nice in live.
haas.

aft sch went bugis wit lynn.
dinner at ajisen ramen.
okay lah. quite full.
den tian shui came down to pass us panadols.
thx. i tink his hse stocks many of em. lol.

den went shoppin n hangin ard bugis..
gotta noe lynn more n more each day. :) yipps.
i saw quite a few vintage dresses
have been searching for wks.
theres 2 tat i really lovee. omg.
i wanna have em!
goin down to bugis to buy tmr.
den bought a purple top today.
:D:D:D:D:D


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Wednesday, July 05, 2006


oh yeah.
France won jux now!
im over der moon. HEHS.
it was dangerous at der last part duh..
lucky tat's a side-kick by portugal.
my father won some money. he's happy. of course.

nver slp for der whole nite.
thk God for being my strength. =)
arghh! this mth's der 2nd time already can.
cannot take it. feelin so soft now.
i used to be so weak tat by 10pm mux slp.
see lah. aft gettin into a poly, my stamina gettin so gd.
this kinda stamina better not to have.
will grow old faster. LOL.

i mux perserevere!!
i mux complete der entrepreneurship proj!!
if not later presentation whole grp will down.
few more hrs left only wor..


6.48am

3:35 PM






i tink tonite's match will be
protugal1 france1
LOL.
but i'll still pray for a possible 1-2.
and even if its draw n there's a shoot-out,
think will be 50% to 50%.

portugal all young peeps.
but still, there're gd players..
lyk figo, costina blah.
so often their names n great kicks mentioned.
but actually i dont really noe a lot a lot abt portugal.
all i noe is FRANCE*
maybe cos tey won previous previous world cup.
so more understanding. haas.
i tink henry n vieira r still in gd shapes.
so dont say they're already gettin old okays!
dont play play.. gagaga*
i still hope france will win duh!

mr t.ng, win money.
den u can go n tell C. Ronaldo tat u won $$!
HAHAHA! :s
n i really mux blog sth.
mr t.ng is one of der himbos who scolds words/phrases
tat can make ppl laugh lyk mad.
example.
"balls drop" to mean "a sudden scary feelin".
"brain block" he call tat "brain stuck".
-.-

still struggling wit projects*


4.08am

12:38 PM






i jux realised tat i haven been bloggin for days.
n i actually helped someone to blog an entry
when i even forgot to blog mine blog.
my memory ROCKS can..

had a prac test today. int programming.
so tough!
i didnt bring my notes n so i dunno wad to do AT ALL!
im lyk a kid who dunno how to cook.
jux playin ard wit der ingredients n did nothing.
darn. :(:(:(
i'll pray hard tat der tutor gimme a retest.
n can u believe,
tat tutor said tat she'll see me next sem.
means i gonna fail module n
stay for another 1/2 yr.
i was so sad can.
i struggled to curse n swear..
and NO by God's grace!
i wont fail! i gonna buck up for tat.
aft der test i was really really goin to cry.
den der first person i wanted call
to vent my frustrations is LTS.
lols. but forget it. dont wan bother him n
scold him for nothing.
den i msged n called jess.
thx FREN!
u're always always there to chill me
when i needed someone der most. :)

wad's worst?
aft my sch, i got to go n tuition straight away.
dont even have time to pick up my emotions.
but thk God, my kid was a funny one.
she sang songs to me n i laughed aft a few hrs.

met lynn to bargain der prices for v/o banner.
its at parklane mall.
supposed to be $580.
i bargained wit tat mr tham till $250.
!! my golden mouth!! LOLOL!
n i actually call mr tham as uncle richard.
(macham noe him very long :S )
duh! these r bargain skills u gotta learn. LOL.

n lynn owes me a MEAL. rem! lols.
den we went ps for dinner. carl's jr.
again. (i jux went there couple of days ago..)

den aft tat went shoppin at bugis.
bought a top, nail-polish n saw a super nice guy tee!
white tee wit gold prints..
i wonder who's bdae is coming up. lols.

entreprenuership proj got so many stuffs to do.
editting, doin survey, add pics, add charts, can die!
all gotta be done by tmr!
i CAN!


11.57pm

7:55 AM





Monday, July 03, 2006


haven been bloggin at my blog.
means.. bloggin for other ppl. LOL

ytd's der first day of sch.
haas. yes yes. i missed my gers. :)
esp angel5 clan.
we holiday oso nver contact de LOR.

ytd during lab session wit kaushuchin,
jiajia called me n told me tey bought movie tix for me.
it R.V (runaway vacation)
not bad lah.. quite funny..
but tis is der first time
i went into a movie theatre aft being 45mins+ late!
duh.. but its okay lah..
i guess der last part (reunion) was gd enough.
HAHAHA.

aft tate went arcade!
my suggestion!!
LOLOL. we played those kiddish game..
lyk hitting der frogs, BLAH.
n jiajia still sucks at datona
AND i wasted $8 away. i tot i could catch one soft toy.
its super cute can n its everytime an "almost there"
hmpf! my next bf my be able to catch tat ting for me!!
GAGAGA!

loveees! they're still my number 1 lovers!
hahaha.. miss em so much.
my precious sec sch memories.... :)

HAHAHA.
aft lyk 4 hrs tog,they went home, i went to sch.
all der way till 8pm cos got nite class.

ps: life is not measured by the number of breaths we take.
but by the moments that take our breath away :)


11.21p

11:21 PM





Sunday, July 02, 2006


hmpfs.
i really wanna spend some time seriously blogging.

ytd midnight i wanted to blog.
too bad. im too tired. fell aslp on desk.
mornin found tat im still online on msn.
i got more than 10 windows tellin me england lost!
-_- sad case.
my fave team. sighs.
but its expected actually..
i tot wld be some kinda draw den
at penalty shoot-out den lose to portugal.
diao. but its lyk.. nothing to sae. :(
heard frm sisca n a few tat becks cried.
his last yr at wc n got injured!! BECKS!! :(:(:(
sad times two.
anyway, brazil oso lost to france.
its unexpected to me, though france is oso a gd team.

went for mornin srv today.
met junying at yew tee mrt station.
he passed me my adidas spain jersey!
:D:D:D:D:D
THANKS.

yipps. srv was great indeed.
though der words shared r der same,
it was double anointin n fuller understanding
of the word.
same as ytd, pastor tan laid hands on der leaders
of both our church n other churches. :)
he prophesized today!
he said to pastor ailin
"der lord will send u off to ard der world
n thousands n thousands of children
will be saved.. you shall be......" blah.
pastor tan got really anointed. :)
same for us.

aft der srv, i went for cg wit
fang, yvette, samson, nixi, junying, linda n sisca.
by cab :))
on der way, there's this dunno wad
champion dog fair.
can faint! so many D-O-G-S!!
hahaha
cg was on evangelism. was of great help to us.
aft cg we had game session!
super fun n funnie..
sheena's der overall winner!! wow!
she won ben n jerry's ice-cream coupon!
i want!! HAHAHA
der uno splam machine went through lotsa torturing n abuse.. gagaga.. thx linda n her game set.
wad a time of fellowship! :D

n sisca, linda n me finally told sis kaixin abt jolin.
stone removed frm our hearts.
glad tat jolin is all well n gd now.

i finally told sis kaixin abt my visions.
i plucked up zillions of courage n told her these..
last wk, i had these vision.
by 18 yrs old, i'll be a cg helper.
by 19 yrs old, i'll be a cg leader.
by 20 yrs old, i'll be in a bible sch student wit prisca.
(prisca's der only person who knew it bfore anyone.)

OKAY.
since i joined ogl n got commited in sit club,
(couple of mths ago)
ive been experiencing so much of spirtual dryness.
even until my event's finished. (BandzOut 0/07)
n i rem-ed clearly.
during der neos camp,
lotsa anointing frm God to everyone;
words, thoughts n visions were placed into ppl's mind.
comforts, assurances n love were put into hearts of ppl.

me in neos camp?
yes i cried. i was feelin so dry inside out.
felt no love n no anionting,
i wanted surrender to tiredness n flesh.
i wanted to give up. so badly.
n all tat i heard was
"obey the ten commandments.
n u will be rised to be der head n not der tail."
it repeated for 2 times?
BUT.
i was hungry for more.
but it stopped there, no more anything frm Him.
i was greedy, i was hungry.
i wanted more anointing but there wasnt.
i knew i nid to tok to someone .

i chose prisca.
(sis kaixin was busy wit accounts tat time.)
we went aside for a heart-to-heart tok.
though short,
she gave me an advice.
"shan. dont give up. kp on prayin. im sure he'll ans u someday"
a very common advice tat can be given
by any tom, dick n henry who's in church.
n der fact is, i knew it already.
but i jux nid someone to tell me, to stand by me.
so i didnt give up.
i kpt on prayin hard.
prayin for a word, a vision, an anointing.
over MONTHS.
(notice: its not HOURS nor DAYS. its MONTHS.)
n yes! hallelujah!
tis day came!

it was last wk.
when i was already tired of speakin in tongues
during worship,
couldnt confess n surrender anymore to God,
for i already gave my all,
sth stirred in me,
tellin me not to stop.
or shld i say i felt sth inside me,
"commanded" me to continue.
i jux went wit der flow.
trusting der holy sprits n guided by em,
slowly, thoughts flowed in.
thoughts of
"wad is my calling in life? wad am i in the church?"
den followed by scenes, faces of ppl.
i saw myself a cg helper, helpin out wit seats in church.
i heard i was 18 by den.
n i saw myself a cg leader.
i heard it was me at 19!
n den, i saw prisca n me wit sch of theology tag ard our necks!
tears flowed out. immediately.
n more came in.

tat was how i got my vision.
blurred by so real.

i asked myself now.
if on that day,
i decided to get tired n give in to my flesh,
will i still have der opportunity to witness der vision?

frens n ppl,
if u ever come to my blog today n read this,
pls, kp prayin for a word, a thought n a vision.
i believe tat christian life is not only
abt seekin refudge frm God
when u're attcked by der devil,
be it anger, bitterness, resentment or shames.
its oso abt leading a life wit visions n aims.

i understand tat ppl might sae tat
this is only a vision. might not be true.
i might be tinkin too much.
but no satan!
im goin to rch for der moon!
i always sae this to myself:
even if i dont rch der moon, i'll land on der stars.
sth's diff now.
ive got full empowerment of my LORD.
n wit Him empowering me,
i believe He's goin to carry me not only to der moon.
but to all der planets in der space!

n thk God for giving prisca her vision too.
she got a word frm God.
im a harvestor of God's kingdom,
shes of eternal value to Him,
and we'll be in bible sch by 20 to 21 yrs old.
yes we will in Jesus name!
n wad's der best ting,
prisca's n my visions r linked n tele-ed!
we gotta really strive for God's kingdom*

i might still be a young christian.
but im definitely a strong one!
I AM.
gonna hold on. gonna press on.
gonna equip myself wit lotsa God's words.
i noe it'll be tough, there'll be resistance.
but i can!
not for days, not for mths n not for yrs.
but till eternity!

my confessions:
Father, indeed i'll swim to my visions.
i will not exchange for sth else
tats lesser than u n deceptive.
i will carry the cross daily
n press on to der upward call of mine.
amen. :)

:)
n lastly, i had sth special wit jolin.
i qn-ed myself. how can i help jolin?
help jolin to draw closer to God, understand Him?
how how how?
haas. aft some self-tinking i finally noe wad!
before i can help her change her life,
i mux first accept her.
n ive already accepted her as wad she is.

hmm.
jolin had to wake up at 5am everyday for work.
i told her to call me once she woke up.
im gonna make it to her a habit
of sayin gd mornin to God n Jesus,
n saying a small simple night prayer for Jesus :)

hmm.
will slowly teach her a few simple n useful
english terms tat can be used in prayers.
hope tat she can understand n
she can pray herself aft tat one wk.
err.. its one wk cos,
it'll be a mental torture to me if its long term..
LOL.. its 5am not 11am aftall.. :s
haas..
lets grow tog!


making a difference
wont you lord
take a look at our hands
everything we have
use it for your plans
wont you lord
take a look at our hearts
mould it, refine it
as you set us apart

we want to run to the alter
and catch the fire
to stand in the gap
between the living n the dead
give us a heart of comppassion
for a world w/o vision
we will make a difference
bringing hope....
to our land

we will answer the call
to build this church w/o walls
let your glory be shown
bring salvation to the lost, to the lost......

outro:
we will make a difference (*4)
bringing hope.....
to our land (*4)

*oh dear; i jux realised my entry's so so long :s
someone's supposed to wake me tmr mornin.
lets see if he rems.


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9:57 AM